9当“参赛” 巴士 - “感.回想.”

俺94小丫头

今天下班，跟往常一样，坐着，一样的那般车~`````````
以前坐车，没有注意过周围，今天不知道怎么了，想了很多哦~`````````````````````
刚进，巴士，我还是喜欢坐每次，自己中意的那个位置~`````````````
靠着右边的，后排第一个，靠窗的座位~``````````````````````
我平时做巴士，都会带着mp3，听着自己爱听得那几首歌~`````````````````````
边听着音乐，边看着车窗外的夜景，（注明:最好不要学我，很容易坐过站的哦~`）
我从打工的地方，坐巴士，需要坐4站，很快9会到家~``````````````````````
巴士停的第一站，我无意识的，看了下，上巴士的几个人~````````````````
近来的4，看起来像，两个中年会社员~```````````````````
一男一女，应该也是，刚下办，两个人有说有笑~`````````````
9在我要转过头，接着看夜景时，发现那个中年女人得手。。。。
不知道该怎么说，有可能是先天性的，只能看到一只手~````````````
印象最深的是，那个中年女人，长得还很漂亮~``````````````````
估计换了任何一个人，心里都会想到，（可怜）ちょっとかわいいそう、せつない~`````````````````````
我想，那个女人，年幼时，会受到很多人的偏见~````````````````
想到这里，让我想起了，去年看过的最好看得连续剧，一リットルの涙~```````````````````````````
不知道，正在看我贴子的你，有没有看过~````````````````
如果没有看过的话，我可是强烈推荐，有机会的话，看一下，不吃亏的~```````````````````````
从小到大，说实话，我自己也经历了很多事，很多的坎坷~```````````````
但是跟那个连续剧里的女孩比起，根本就不算什么~````````````````
我从小到大，都是在姥姥家里长大，父母常年在外~``````````````````````
一直到我14岁之前，也可以说，从没有像别的孩子们一样，感受到父母的爱~`````````````````
记得在小学，每当我们学校开家长会，看着别的同学们，都是自己的父母来学校~```````````````````````````
而我，每次都是不一样的人（我的亲戚）姥姥也应该参加过我的家长会~`````````````````
从那时起，我9很谢幕身边的同学，也同时，心里总是在抱怨~`````````````````````
抱怨，我为什么不能像他们一样，为什么，我的父母都不在身边~````````````````````````````
那时候，我唯一认为两个最亲的亲人，只有我姥姥，还有我哥哥~``````````````````
等我升入初中，跟着自己慢慢长大，也能开始理解父母的不容易了~````````````````````````
这个社会，很残酷，没有钱不行，父母不在外挣钱，我也不可能，吃得饱，穿得好~```````````````
9这样，我也没有那么多的不满和抱怨了，最起码自己的身边，还有着爱自己的哥哥~```````````````````````````````
但是，哥哥也有自己的学业，为了学业，不得不跟我分开，去另外一个城市~```````````````````````````````
哥哥走的那天，我记得很清楚，应该已经猜到了8，女人真是用水做的~`````````````````````````
从来不哭得哥哥，唯有那天，也没忍住，临走前，跟我说，让我好好照顾姥姥~````````````````````
也要好好照顾好自己，哥哥不在身边，也要听姥姥的话，要好好学习~````````````````
再火车站，我一直看着，哥哥坐的火车，离我远去，还在那里发呆了好长时间~``````````````````````
我的故事9讲到这些，再写写不完了~```````````````
要说的话，得写到明早也写不完~```````````````````
继续我的巴士感了~``````````````
不知道你有没有想过，自己为什么会生在这样的家庭~````````````````````````
如果我是生长在有钱人家里该多好~`````````````
如果我长得再漂亮点该多好啊~````````````````
如果我现在是一个明星该多好~````````````````````
如果，如果，如果。。。。。。。
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如果，你在你的周围，看到那些手脚不便的人~```````````````````
你9会对你现在的一切，都会感到，自己已经很幸运了~```````````````````````````
我觉得我真幸运，我出生在这个世上，我的手脚健全~````````````````
我真庆幸，我能看到现在这样美丽多彩，缤纷的世界~``````````````
我真庆幸，我能听，我能看，我能说，我能走，我能跑，我能~``````````````````````````
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我最庆幸的是，在我16岁一后，碰到我现在的爸爸`````````````````````````````
（——继续昨天的写。。）
我现在的爸爸是日本人~````````````````
最初，刚听到妈妈说时，我不敢去见这个爸爸~````````````````````````
也从没想过，自己要来日本，跟现在这个爸爸一起生活~``````````````````````````````````
我第一次见我现在的爸爸是在02年的5月份~```````````````
爸爸正好赶上黄金周，和妈妈一起来的北京，见得我和哥哥~``````````````````````````````
最开始，因为我的固执，妈妈也没想要求我非的来日本跟她一起生活~`````````````````````````````
在后来，因为哥哥生的一场大病，那一年妈妈光回国，9回来了有5次~```````````````````
从哥哥的那次病，妈妈把我也叫到了哥哥的病房，妈妈对我跟哥哥说:"~`````````````````````
哥哥和丫头，你俩俩还是跟我去日本8~````````````````
妈妈本来是没有想，非要勉强你们跟我一起去日本生活，但是，经过这次的事~``````````````````````
我不想再日本，天天担惊受怕，觉也睡不好，吃也吃不好的过日子了~```````````````````
丫头跟哥哥不在妈妈身边一天，在日本，妈妈也不能放心的生活"~````````````````````````
我跟哥哥都明白，但是，一时之间，我俩谁也没有说话~`````````````````````````````
哥哥看着我，等着我会说什么，可我也是在等着哥哥，会怎么回答妈妈~``````````````````````````
之后，妈妈见我俩都不吭声，只好让哥哥休息，妈妈带我回了hotel~```````````````````
那天，我和妈妈睡了一张床，我觉得，这种感觉，ひさしぶり、なつかしい~``````````````````````````
我想哭，但是不想让妈妈看到，我只好背过身睡觉~`````````````````````
后来实在是忍不住，哭出声来，我9起来去了洗手间~``````````````````
还以为妈妈早就熟睡了，没想到妈妈起来，进了洗手间~```````````````````
我看了看妈妈，妈妈的眼睛也是红着的~````````````````````````````
后来妈妈抱住我了，说，真的对不起我，不应该从小让我自己长大~``````````````````````````
我已经说出话来了，那天晚上，我跟妈妈抱在一起，哭了好久~``````````````````````
第一次觉得，被妈妈抱着的感觉4那么的好，感觉很温暖~````````````````````````
那一晚，睡觉的时候，想了好多，有一点点开始忧郁了~`````````````````
很想让这种幸福的感觉，在以后的每一天都能感受得到~``````````````````````
忧郁，我要不要跟妈妈去日本，去日本见我的新爸爸~```````````````
第2天，妈妈也有问过哥哥，哥哥毕竟是哥哥，比我大，想得比我要成熟的多了~`````````````````
哥哥说他无所谓的，只要妈妈过的幸福9好~```````````````
至于要不要去日本，也要看小丫头要不要去日本阿~````````````````
她不去的话，我得留下来照顾妹妹，她自己在中国不放心~```````````````````````
上面是哥哥对妈妈说的，妈妈把哥哥的原话，也说给我听了~````````````````
问我可不可以在好好考虑，要不要去日本一起生活~````````````````````
我想了有一星期左右，总是矛盾，去了日本，要去接受新的爸爸~``````````````````````
而且还是个日本人，我最讨厌的日本，总是在想，我要见得爸爸会是什么样的一个人~``````````````````````
都说日本人很隔路，还有大男子主义，还有都很凶~````````````````
当时的我，对日本人的感觉实在是超差了，想得我头疼的很~``````````````````````
妈妈似乎看穿了我的心思一样，对我说这次9这么回日本了~``````````````````
等再过几个月，黄金周的时候，我领你日本的那个爸爸回来见你们~```````````````````````````
虽然只来中国呆5天，那个爸爸也很想见见你们，你们在一起呆几天~````````````
互相熟悉以下，然后你和哥哥在作决定，要不要跟我去日本好了~````````````````
9这样，妈妈回日本了，妈妈回日本的那段日子，真是很想妈妈~````````````````
也是第一次这么想念自己的妈妈，有时候想的，晚上自己在被窝里哭~`````````````````````````````
不想让任何人知道我有哭过，都这么大了，还哭，觉得太没有出息了~```````````````````
一直在等着妈妈说过的黄金周，等着那一天的到来~```````````````````
中间的那几个月，我跟哥哥会时不时地商量，到底要不要去日本~``````````````
互相说出自己心理的想法，哥哥每次都说，主要是我怎么想的~``````````````````````
看我会做出什么决定，哥哥绝对不会抛弃丫头的~```````````````````
过了几个月，春天的到来，终于盼到了黄金周~``````````````````````
妈妈没有违约，提前一个星期，9给我们打了电话~```````````````````
叫我们提前去北京大爷家里，等着他们的到来~```````````````````````
我和哥哥都很紧张，不知道见到那个爸爸好，要怎么样才好~```````````````````````
妈妈他们，晚上才到的北京，我跟哥哥还有大爷一家子~````````````````````
我们跟妈妈说好，在饭店等他们来跟我们一起晚饭~``````````````````
我觉得当时的情形，属我最紧张了，坐立不安，不知该怎么办才好~``````````````````
见面了第一句要说什么，不是，我要不要跟那个新爸爸说话~```````````````````````
想着想着，不知什么时候，妈妈和他，已经都坐我的面前了~````````````````````
等我反应过来的时候，我看到对面，爸爸坐在那里，像我微笑~`````````````````````
跟我用中文说了一句你好，听到这话，我也向他笑了一下~``````````````
我对我做出的反应，我也有点意外，为什么对现在的爸爸，第一次见，却没有陌生感~`````````````````````````
只觉得，他看起来很和蔼，吃饭的时候，我费劲脑汁，用手势，写汉字，就像跟爸爸交流~````````````````````````````
爸爸也是，在努力，尽量能听懂我跟哥哥说的是什么~```````````````````````
那天的晚饭，比我想象的，吃的要好吃，要开心~```````````````````````
我跟我现在的爸爸，见面的第2天，他们带我和哥哥去了，天安门，故宫，还有别的名胜古迹~````````````````````
基本上该走的，该去看得地方都有去~`````````````````
午饭时间，因为的我的要求，他们带我跟哥哥去吃的肯德基~````````````````````````````
我点了好多吃的，我狼吞虎咽的，好像吃的最多的94我~`````````````````
等快吃完的时候，发现我们4个人，真的好像一家人~````````````````
虽然当时我们都不能用言语，互相交流，说话~````````````````````````
但是，那种幸福感，我相信不光是我自己，他们也有感觉到~```````````````````````
虽然，黄金周，才短短的5天，我却感受到了，从小到大，没享受过的幸福感~`````````````````````
从那一刻起，我坚定，我要跟妈妈去日本，我要去日本享受一家人的幸福~`````````````````````
我要享受，我没有享受过的父爱和母爱~````````````````````
我想哥哥，也是这么想的，相信哥哥比我更希望去日本~```````````````````
哥哥比我多活了5年，跟妈妈比我要好得多了~```````````````````````````
妈妈也严重偏爱哥哥，因为哥哥是很懂事的好孩子~```````````````````````
从来不会跟妈妈顶嘴，惹妈妈生气，更是不可能发生的事~``````````````````````````````````````
9这样，02年的8月10，我跟哥哥来了日本~``````````````````
这一天，是对于我现在的爸爸，很重要的一个日子~``````````````````````````````````
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（今天9写这些8。。。累了。。。。。。）













那个连续剧的主题曲 - 特别爱听~````````````````````

[此贴子已经被作者于2006-11-21 23:54:14编辑过]

玻璃杯

一口气看完了~

可惜还没写完~```````````

fsjb

丫头也是,感情丰富,思维细腻的人啊[em01]

djmmsg

等待下文...........明天还来...

亂丗☆尐尐

活着要懂得感恩,要感谢父母给了自己健全的四肢和大脑.
丫头是懂得感恩的人~ 成熟了 呵呵

我的玻璃饼

这篇文章让我看到了不一样的丫头

quei

天外飞仙一样的文笔
佩服佩服！
看到后来很感动，
有个哥哥在身边真好！

依呀依

虽然很长。分了几口看。。。
还是被感动了。。。

松岛2丁目

这小m！！
来给你捧场来了！！
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